It’s pretty fucked up that allegedly an American was helping out…
it’s a crazy world
This article tries to portray decades and decades of progressive policy being the cause of Penn Station’s inability to update and modernize.
I will admit I did not read it all. I had to stop when I pulled a muscle with an eye roll.
Stopped at “Robert Caro’s fault.”
warrick dunn? I’m a super quiet dude but there’s little chance I’m not firing are you really fucking criticizing a dude for giving away free homes to poor people? I realize there’s consequences here but fuck it.
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bunch of globalists
I’m definitely going off at “Warrick Dunn (something bad). Though I’m SUPER bad at this stuff and would probably say something like “well that’s pretty fucking racist”
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Yea, literally my first time meeting them after dating their daughter for all of 2 months so I somehow managed to bite my tongue but it was painful. I finally understand all of the in-law annoyance now, this is gonna be tough if it lasts.
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lol, I was gonna see that movie tonight but than I remembered that Ford vs. Ferrari is showing (great movie!). As a Colombo/Christie superfan I am 100% going to see Knives Out next week.
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If i make the opposite of that am i PCing and virtue signaling? Sigh.
This has been my experience with mindfulness meditation as well. Have you ever done a retreat? I want to try one of the 10-day retreats next year, I think.
I havnt yet but have been talking about it. I struggle past about 30 min. Everything I’ve read says many people have a breakthrough at retreats.
Someone responded to this post a few days ago and asked me what I’m reading and something to the effect of how has this realization changed my perception/experiences. I can’t seem to find the post and I don’t remember who it was, so I hope you read this.
I don’t get to read much for pleasure these days, since I do so much reading for work. But the realization I shared above is really just insight I gained from being exposed to Buddhist ideas. My introduction to Buddhism as well as mindfulness meditation cane from a book called Why Buddhism is True. I’m not spiritual in the slightest, and the book does a nice job of introducing the more practical Buddhist insights, benefits of meditation, and it explains some empirical evidence that supports some of those insights.
As far changes in my perception/experiences, the main thing that I’ve realized is how much of my anxiety comes from debt and trying to attain a standard of living that is worthless and won’t lead to contentment. The fear of losing my job and not being able to afford all the comforts that I’d grown accustomed to, dove me to a very dark place. So one goal I’ve set is to pay off all my debt and find a decent place to live do that I don’t ever have to feel like I have to do keep a job in order to be satisfied.
Now that I’m in the other side of the worst of my depression things are just different and I’m still coming to grips with what that means. My depression drove me to the point that I perceived my life as a negative-sum existence and that there was no point in putting up with the constant struggle against the persistent negative and horrible thoughts and images my mind was bombarding me with. I still haven’t figured out the right way to describe this, but during this time I lost the fear of dying, or perhaps, the idea that life was worth living completely lost validity in my mind. That has not left me, either.
It’s not that I’m actively looking to take my life or take unnecessary risks, but my view on death, even now, has changed and I don’t think it’s ever going to be the same. I think it’s silly the lengths we go to collectively to prevent people from ending their lives. We will literally lock people up who don’t want to live anymore, making their existence even more miserable and then burdening them with social stain of being Baker Acted. It’s fucked up. I realize that there are people that may have some mental illness that makes them momentarily suicidal, and it might be reasonable to intervene in those circumstances. It all just seems like projection. We are raised with the idea that survival and living as long as we can is a moral imperative. I don’t doubt that there are many people who love life and want to live as long as possible, but the idea that everyone should be forced to adopt that as true seems ducked up and ridiculous to me now.
I’m not currently suicidal, but I still haven’t found long-term purpose for my life. Most of the things I thought I aspired to repulse me now or I find hollow. I keep myself motivated by focusing on small, short term projects, with mixed success. The realization that I need to find more permanent motivations in things that are more substantial that material wealth or acclaim in my profession wouldn’t have been possible without meditation and therapy. I’d already be dead without those things. I’m still pretty pessimistic when it comes to my future, but because I no longer think that we are supposed to be happy, I no longer see that as a reason to go ahead and end things.
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I usually sit for anywhere between 15 minutes and an hour. The longest I’ve sat is 2 hours. After my best sits I will have a period where I notice much more detail in the mundane stuff your brain normally just passes over without consciously registering. When I’m outdoors it has the effect of helping me see a lot more beauty in the world, which helps with the depression. It sounds cheesy, but it’s true in my experience.
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