I’m sorry to hear that.
Does how this affects you carry over back to your personal life?
Sometimes I find myself affected by one family member in particular. He finds himself close to powerless not to jump onto a soap box and preach about his most recent epiphany. His attitude is generally that he doesn’t know everything, but he knows just enough more than you to tell you why you’re wrong.
Of course he would never say it like that, it’s just that from his POV, he feels the weight of how ignorant he thinks he once was (and everyone else still is). He’s just trying to help you!
The tough thing for me is that for all of his perpetual outrage that no one will stop and appreciate the NUANCE of a topic, he shuts down if I try to discuss that nuance. It’s left me concluding I really need to back off from conversations like this with people like him because even where we agree, the way we reach and discuss our conclusions makes dialogue too hard.
For me, the way we reach our conclusions generally is far more important than the conclusion itself. Yeah, I agree to disagree with people all the time, but I haven’t decided my conclusion about anything. This is just the best answer I have at the time, but I accept that new information might over time throw everything I believe into question. I lean into the uncertainty. I embrace how ignorant and stupid I am about a great many things.
But he seems compulsively reaching for the right conclusion, the position that holds the least ignorance, the most certainty, the one he can hold on to and preach with absolute confidence and never ever need to doubt or question.
I remember a video I’ve lost to time that showed a woman declaring that she wished Christians would embrace the principle of Sharia Law because while Islam was wrong to enforce it, that was because Islam was wrong. In the name of Christianity? She wished Christians would be just as brutal because WE HAVE THE TRUTH.
I’ve been there, too. Not with just the big stuff, I mean all over. Science, politics, religion, nutrition, philosophy, and dumb stuff like how/whether to drive a car. Lately I think less about how wrong I think some people are and more how their arrogance and outrage (including my own) makes it impossible to have any kind of productive dialogue. These days I just try to not be the person who assumes I already know all I need to know to tell you why you’re wrong.
But it’s hard. I walk a lot and just think about things, and it’s only recently that I’m able to stop and say wtf? Why are you rehearsing arguments with x/y/z? It’s not even to formulate what hopefully is a better articulated argument. I’m just intoxicating myself on outrage and plans to dunk on morons.