No pics because that’s not how I roll, but I made this absolutely delicious chicken liver pasta today.
This gives you an idea about how I think about food. This was my thought process.
I had some chicken livers in my refrigerator. Why? Because they’re delicious and were only $1.99/pound. I just bought then and decided to figure it out later. It was later now. One way I might cook chicken liver is to first cook bacon in the oven then bake the livers in the bacon fat in the tray I used, but that’s the way I cooked the livers last time, so I decided I wanted something different.
How else are livers used? Dirty rice! But I don’t feel like eating rice and I don’t have any green bell peppers. Well, whatever.
So, I boil some pasta. Rigatoni because whatever. And I chop up some garlic and onions (fuck it, I’m lazy, I don’t want to chop up celery, too) and sauté in olive oil and butter. I rinse the chicken livers and, keeping them whole, put then in the pan with the garlic and onions. Salt, pepper, dried parsley and oregano. Some Worcestershire sauce and, because I don’t have brandy, vermouth. Looking back, I should have added some acid, some lemon juice or maybe some vinegar (champagne vinegar?).
Modern versions of dirty rice often have ground meat, although the more Cajun variations (dirty rice is a Creole dish) might have sausage like andouille. I happen to have some leftover cooked ground Italian sausage and some mushrooms, which I throw in here because why not? The sausage has a lot of fat, which will be nice.
So, here’s the thing about liver. It’s best if not overcooked. You still want it pinkish in the middle. I get nervous about these things. I’m not great at precision timing in cooking. That’s why I like sous vide. Someone might make this pasta by cutting the liver before cooking. I decide that I am going to cook mostly through. When I think it is close to done, I’m going to remove from the pan and cut into smaller, bite-sized pieces and see how it looks inside.
The pasta is boiling. I’ve cooked in a smaller pot than I normally use, so I stir every once in a while to keep it from sticking to the pot. You don’t really have to use a ton of water at a rolling boil to cook pasta. I barely have the rigatoni covered. One result is that the starchiness of the pasta water is more concentrated. I ladle a few spoonful of the pasta water onto my livers (after removing half to used later in…something else I’ll figure out between now and then).
My sauce is bubbling as I drain my pasta, half of which I reserve for whatever I decide this weekend. It looks creamy. Is that because there’s probably a half a stick of butter in there? I toss half of the pasta with the sauce (I should have used a bigger pan or done it in my pot after draining the pasta) and the rigatoni is well-coated. To finish it, I add some shredded parmesan. I buy shredded because I hate doing it myself.
If I priced out the ingredients I actually used, it might be $5 of food. Half a pound of chicken livers at $1.99/lb. Half a pound of pasta at $0.99 for a one-pound package. Maybe a third of a pound of Italian sausage bought on sale at $2.49/lb. Half an onion. A handful of white mushrooms. A couple of cloves of garlic. Seasonings.
But, fuck, it was delicious. Like, I actually said that out loud as I sat eating by myself. “Fuck, this is delicious.” And I’m the kind of person who can go days without swearing, unlike people who seem to drop an F-bomb every other sentence.
This was my first time cooking chicken livers with pasta. I’m sure I’ll make something like it in the future, but I’ll switch it up, add some ingredients that I didn’t have the last time, forget some I used this time. I wonder how it would be with some cream or with some form of tomato. Maybe I should have used that Creole seasoning that I always forget is in the back of my spice cabinet. I might want to try tofu instead of chicken liver because tofu and pork are a great pairing.
But I’m not working from a recipe. I often don’t. I kind of know what I’m making, how it starts and what the key ingredients are and I fill in the gaps as I go. Sometimes, I have to call an audible because it turns out I didn’t have an ingredient that I thought I had.
When I’m of a mind to, this is how I cook for myself. Figure out what I can make using whatever ingredients I have on hand, which were usually bought on sale. To put it another way, I buy what’s cheap then figure out how to use those ingredients (plus common pantry items) after I buy them instead of going to the grocery with a list.
I feel like no one I know cooks this way. If they cook at all, they are usually making things they have cooked many times and have perfected their routine or are following a recipe step by step. Does this feel like anyone else’s kitchen process?