Fidget, so sorry to hear the news. Never appropriate words for when a parent passes. I wish you peace of mind and full happy memories as time passes.
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Been keeping an eye and heart on this and and I share this pain with you.
The best expression I know of regarding how much our moms mean to us:
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You ain’t the only one.
I’ve been to nearly every country in Europe. I’ve polished off bucket lists my friends have made and yet they’re the ones posting pictures of their kids and all that.
I don’t necessarily regret my decisions. I just feel that I basically sacrificed intimacy and long-term relationships for too long. Probably should have stopped this earlier.
Can’t go back. In my mid 30s, I still have time and you have more. Covid wasted a year. So we’ll have to work hard to get it back.
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You guys got time. Everyone on Seinfeld is in their mid-thirties.
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This bit keeps me sane
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COVID forced a lot of us to confront the reality of what we’re facing in our everyday lives. To sit still and engage with our situation more fully than anyone ever should at once. But we did, and we survived.
You may find yourself better positioned (and motivated) to find a compatible partner than ever.
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just mute him and then if he @s you you’ll never know, it won’t show up in your notifications.
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Congrats on your wife’s good news - must be a massive relief after recent events. Crack open a bottle and try to get a decent Christmas break. What a year.
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Not entirely surprised to hear he checked himself into rehab for cocaine and alcohol addiction. He’s done a few interviews lately and the man looked broken.
https://twitter.com/katienolan/status/1341170829892210688?s=20
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My mental health has taken a slight downturn lately. I am in the midst of a SAD episode (seasonal affective disorder) that is presenting very strangely, with hypomania and also depression.
I think it is the prolonged isolation of living and working from home. I spoke to a friend for 20 minutes on the phone yesterday and felt measurably better. I think it had been weeks since I’d spoken to a human being outside of work or my stream. I am starting to see things out of the corner of my vision, it’s really annoying and startling when it happens.
I can’t seem to take my meds more than two days in a row, I keep forgetting. So that is probably not helping things as well.
All in all I really need the vaccine to get here because I’m not sure how much longer I can cope with this. My plan for my 2 week vacation is to take care of all the little things I’ve been letting go of, and maybe go spend a few days in the mountains at an air bnb to just clear my mind and get the hell out of this stupid house.
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Mostly shielding myself from political elements here and being on vacation has done a ton for me. Even if I’m not doing anything, it’s good for me.
People need time off. The fact that jobs in America have zero sick or personal days is insane.
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Is the Discord channel here still up? Talking shit with posters there might be helpful.
The vacation sounds like it will be a big relief. When do you start?
I’m also interested to hear about your streaming, but this might not be the thread for it. I’ve considered hopping on stream and playing chess or video games or something but haven’t built up the courage yet. Hearing about your setup, experiences, etc would be great :)
I do dnd on discord once every ~2 weeks with boredsocial and regretS so that is a nice bit of chit chat usually.
Catface, I’d be happy to tell you all about it but I fear there is not much to tell. I only have 450 followers and I’m averaging like 10 unique viewers per stream. Just trying to remain consistent on a schedule until I get lucky and something pops off - like happened to me last time I got a big host from a well known streamer.
Really all you need is a camera and some kind of headset or mic with good audio quality. Good cpu is a must if you want to stream in 1080p, because the stream must be encoded as it is uploaded, and it is a very cpu heavy operation.
But if my 2015 macbook air could handle it I assume most machines can. Just download OBS studio and connect your twitch/youtube/whatever to it and you’re basically good to go. Do monitor/display capture at first because it’s the easiest and laziest way to capture video, but the software is much easier to use now.
I wouldn’t be intimidated because in your first several months to possibly even a year you’re going to have very few viewers and it’s difficult playing to an audience of zero or one. You’d also be very surprised what people like watching you do, or who takes a shine to you.
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WAT
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I enjoy streaming but haven’t been able to figure out how to have music playing without overwhelming my voice audio. It’s really frustrating
When I am tryharding I typically will do a recording before the stream with music playing and me talking at various volumes, then playing it back to see how it sounds. Most audio from browsers comes in horrifically loud on the stream even if it sounds super quiet to you. The only way to do it is to test.
I am lazy though and dont play music anymore and because of DMCA, they will pull your videos if they contain copyrighted material.
The biggest improvement I need to work on is supporting bots because a common complaint I have from viewers is that their chat commands they like to use on other channels dont work on mine because I have nothing enabled. But I say tough shit, really. You can cater to your viewers but at the EOD it is YOUR stream and you should only do what YOU like. That’s the most important thing to finding success, I think.
The reason I say this is because I’ve bent over backwards for hardcore viewers before and have been burned almost every time. You’re just entertainment to them, you rarely mean anything.
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I’m kinda stuck in the same boat.
Somehow the depression sets in because of the monotony and the loneliness. And the thing that will make you feel better is doing something new with other people. But when you find yourself depressed it’s the hardest thing to make yourself go do.
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We didn’t do any gaming last night, not have we in any time I participated in Discord. Hearing the voices of other human beings might be beneficial for people who feel that their mental health is harmed by being isolated. Do you have a microphone?
I was scared the first time I did it. I listened for a while before as willing to speak.
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I will probably only listen for a while or forever too. It would take me a while just to say a complete sentence anyway :P
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