I feel better. still have moments of anxiety, but I’m more confident.
then, stuff that I’d been working on even prior to the meds, I think the meds might be helping with those. less impulsive, but I still get sour and people notice it in real and virtual settings, but I’m trying to stack day on top of successful-day not having an online meltdown lmao. a meltdown is almost an impossibility in real life, with the way I’m feeling and trying to modify my behavior. impulsivity is still there, but diminished
Nice. I’m glad to hear of such meaningful benefits. When I found the right med, it wasn’t that anything was less painful or difficult, I just felt more capable and resilient to face those things.
I got my psychological testing back… and it does not appear that getting ADHD meds will be a problem (seriously I’m not a borderline case, in every way one can be atypical I scored meaningfully atypical with some being very very atypical). Additionally I probably have some form of PTSD. This does not come as much of a surprise to me unfortunately.
I’m not particularly looking forward to the experience of being medicated, but I very much am looking forward to enjoying the results of it. I’m tired of doing this shit on hard mode, time to activate the cheats.
It’s definitely not something you chain smoke. I can feel a build up of phlegm if I do it for too long. So I really don’t like doing it unless it’s necessary.
I’m sure that there have been studies done on this but it feels to me that the mere act of smoking something is relaxing rather than what’s going into your lungs. I mean it definitely relaxes me more effectively than oil but the effect doesn’t seem to last quite as long. However, it’s much cheaper than oil. The pods last longer and are refillable. Good CBD oil is pretty expensive.
In short, it’s good for a quick, short-term effect (lungs absorb the CBD very quickly). It’s useful if I’m going into an anxious situation or if I’m having or about to have an anxiety attack. But I think there are longer term benefits and less health risks associated with continuing to use oil.
The “simulation” comments in the forum that get thrown around are triggering for someone who underwent a prolonged existential crisis in his late teens… I became convinced for months that reality was not real and went into a little bit of a psychosis and that was a major element to it. I thought that my life was some elaborate test by god or that I was plugged into the matrix, just a profound and deep and unnerving feeling that nothing I was experiencing was actually real. It was horrible.
Now I read those comments and am like, haha, but hmm?
But for real, they’re hard to read. I’m not asking anyone to stop, because I think they’re funny, but I hope when you guys say that stuff you are just joking around. Going too far down that rabbit hole can really fuck with your head if you’re in a vulnerable state and I hope no one here is.
If you want evidence of how much it can fuck with people, look at the people who really sincerely believe in this stuff and how fucked up they are. I forget what it’s called but they freak out if you even mention it because they think we’ll trigger the AI into sending us into some contrived purgatory/hell.
Derealization is the feeling that the world one lives in is not real. Depersonalization is the feeling that one’s own thoughts and emotions are not real or don’t really belong to oneself.
I’ve posted those sort of “simulation” comments and am definitely not serious about it, but I did wonder briefly after the last one I posted about whether I should really be seeding those sort of ideas, in a world as apt to throw people off balance as the one we’re experiencing right now.
Sounds a little like my mom who was often sick and at times in the hospital but rarely complained. Outlived my dad, who was very rarely sick, by several years. I hope she recovers quickly. Let us know how she’s doing.
Best wishes to your mum and hopefully the net result will be a huge improvement in quality of life for her.
I’ve noticed how people in their 80s tend to have more positive attitudes to setbacks (and to civic duty) than the generation that followed. We have several sets of neighbours in their 60s and 70s who are all very boomerish in values, but now count the elderly couple who are 81 and 84 as friends. Afternoon tea and cake with them is a pleasure.
Yesterday I got a call from a friend saying he was feeling suicidal. I met with him and we talked for a while. He calmed down somewhat and I felt like he wouldn’t do anything rash. He has a good plan for the week, seeing a couple of therapists, one with his partner, and an MD as well.
There is something I’m second guess myself on. We talked about him going to the psych ward at a hospital. He called and talked to them. There is a possibility they’d involuntarily hold him for 24 hours up to a few days if he told them he was suicidal, so he was hesitant. If it was me, I’d be afraid of that too, so I could understand, but I wonder if I should have recommended he go ahead and do that?
It’s tough to say how serious he is about suicide. For sure he’s extremely anxious and has had a lot of trouble sleeping and hasn’t been eating. I’ll be checking in on him today and asked a mutual friend to do the same.
They absolutely would involuntarily hold him if he told an ER that, therapists and GPs will also sic the cops on him if he expresses more than a vague thought on suicide, like a plan. I might present the option of checking in, but I wouldn’t lean on him to go if he’s talking about getting therapy.
Bless you, Devil. I hope letting your friend know you are someone they can turn to when they have these feelings will make all the difference for them. For me, it can help to just have someone go through it with me. We can try to make sense of the impulses later.
Thanks. Yeah, we talked about the treatment things he’s doing and other options he has available. The thing is those things take time to figure out what works. Just trying to help him be patient with himself and get through the rough spots. The hospital is an option if it gets bad enough and he has reached out for help from others so that’s a good sign I think.
Thanks, @RiskyFlush and @TrueNorth32. It seems like most of my rl friends are having issues right now so I’m getting a lot of practice, ha. The societal problems we talk about here every day sure don’t help.
