Keeping it brief, since this is the “delete Facebook” thread, not the “my political journey” thread…
I kind of backed into tech as a career; it was something I was into and had fun with, and it was the path of least resistance to a job that would pay my bills. I ended up at a place where I can plausibly connect what I do with people’s well-being (which is fortunate because after 20 years I am completely sick of computer stuff).
Politically I got activated after 9/11 and all of the GW administration’s atrocities. During that time I spent a lot of time with people in the local ISO (International Socialist Organization) chapter and learned a lot about (their version of) Marxist theory.
I found, and still find, that it has a lot of explanatory power and matches up well with what I see in the world around me. Where it comes up short for me is in predictive power. I think the revolution of the workers followed by the reorganization of the economy into worker-owned-and-led collectives is a highly unlikely outcome.
I guess that’s where the “lapsed” comes from. I haven’t replaced that idea with anything better though–I haven’t come across any theory that adequately deals with the reality that humans are just naked apes who have created powerful technology they don’t have the capacity to deeply understand or control.
As far as playing a role in a system that’s opposed to my values, to avoid going into Johnny Truant-like spasms of self-flagellation, or ending up at the logical end point of living in a shack in the woods, I think it’s important to realize we live in a capitalist society. You can’t escape it.
It’s up to us individually to decide how much to participate, how much to resist, organize, protest, etc. I do what I feel like I reasonably can (Facebook thread tie-in: I only have a “stub” account with no friends because I have to admin a page for work), but I do still order some stuff from Amazon, etc.
Maybe it’s a rationalization, but even though the things I do are infinitesimally small and have minimal impact, I comfort myself by asking, “if everyone did this the way I do, would the world be a better place or a worse place?” If I think the answer is “better” I keep doing it, if it’s “worse” I try to do it less.
[Oops, that got long. Sorry to the other posters following this thread. MC, if you want to keep discussing we can take it to PM.]