I found negative thoughts about myself were my biggest problem. When I was able to get a hold of that it helped tremendously. Unfortunately it can get to a point where it feels impossible.
I think all of us agree if someone out there is struggling, please act sooner rather than later.
When you do, please tag me. I’m interested to read your experiences. A lot of my negative feelings come from shame as well. I grew up in a conservative Christian family and community and that has had long-lasting effects on my thinking that have survived despite the fact that I’m no longer religious or conservative. On a certain level, it fascinates me.
Is there a mental health thread? Because if there isn’t, there should be.
I don’t think I’m the guy who is qualified enough to create it though.
This is my pet hate atm… 
They say its the small things that get to you. 
As long as I can remember I always just kind of assumed I would eventually kill myself. It just felt like a foregone conclusion. In the last years of my alcoholism and addiction I started thinking about it constantly - I’d hear a sad song on the radio and think “this would be great to have at my funeral” or I’d see a tree and think that it might be a good one to hang myself from. From there I progressed to active planning, when and where etc. I was going to take a bunch of pills and then drive off a cliff in the Angeles Forest. When I had my “moment of clarity” that began my journey in sobriety part of it was realizing that it wasn’t so much that I wanted to die, but that I could not possibly continue to live the way I had been (which included but was not limited to drugs and alcohol). Part of the “I need to kill myself to get out of this” mentality for me was that change wasn’t going to be possible. I can’t exactly say what allowed me to initially consider the possibility that changing was worth a shot, but I definitely picked up some hope when I got to AA and met people who had been like me and had obviously changed.
Suicidal thinking persisted for me until I was around five years sober, so two and a half years ago. I wasn’t planning or anything, but it probably crossed my mind a couple of times a day, just a reflexive thought when something wasn’t going the way I wanted it to. Since then, it has mostly been removed from me. I sometimes fantasize about changing my name, getting a new identity, and moving to live in a shack in the desert as a hermit for the rest of my life, which I think is kind of Suicide Lite, but even that has gotten much better with a renewed dedication to a daily practice of sobriety.
And yeah that’s why I never got a gun either. Pretty sure I wouldn’t be here now, but who really knows.
If we legit go Nazi Germany (unlikely) and there is a resistance (there won’t be), they will have plenty of guns for you to use. Left wing hero fantasies are just as ridiculous as right wing hero fantasies.
I don’t need a gun. I have a Chihuahua.
She even has a “come at me bro” shirt.
I listened to the Second Circuit oral argument and Trump is going to lose. It is obviously headed up the Supreme Court, again, where he will lose, again, but it doesn’t matter, mission accomplished, if we ever learn anything it will be after November. He’s already going to jail if he loses and imposing fascism if he wins, so this case is irrelevant.
I got into horses and bayonettes once Obama broke the news they are on the decline
This ability to delay delay delay is a ridiculous feature of the legal system.
The McGahn thing is ridiculous. The ahole Judges like Rao directly contradict what SCOTUS just ruled. Then it’s got to be reheard en banc.
Lol once again the self-own of massively amplifying something relatively few people were even aware of. What an imbecile.
This is basically the plot of Babylon Berlin, a very fine TV show (although it is cop friendly, as the two main characters are cops).
