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I came of a med and the wthdrawals werenāt great. I pretty much was just focussed on getting through without becoming suicidal or going off the rails. Weight loss hasnāt even entered my head. I weighed myself this morning and Iām 121.4 kg/267 pounds the biggest Iāve ever been. A huge 4 kg weight gain in just under 2 weeks. Plus the med I came off exacerbates weight gain so I thought coming off it would be beneficial and not detrimental.
I donāt think Iām in the mindset that I can currently keep under 1600 calories so Iām upping my calories to 1800 and will reassess at the end of the month. Itās got to be better than doing 1600 and following up by not counting for 2 weeks and overeating.
Itās frustrating that I can only seem to stay committed for short bursts and then stop once a hurdle appears. Iām frustrated at myself and I imagine itās frustrating for people following along also. On the plus side there were a few nasty side effects that occurred due to the med I was on and now Iām off it so hopefully that will improve my health, mental health and well-being. Plus I didnāt attempt to top myself so thatās a good thing! Thank you for listening.
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had noticed you werenāt around
hugzzzzzzzzzzz, kisses 
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Fwiw as a relatively new follower of this thread Iād like to hope you feel encouragement here, not judgement. Youāre going through a tough time, and rebounding to think about how you can move forward. Itās easily said by an āoutsiderā, but I hope you find some space among your thoughts to be proud of yourself. It takes a lot of resilience to face challenges and keep picking yourself up. You live up to your thread title, and I think that matters a lot more than what a number on the scale is telling you right now.
I hope you feel better soon
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Donāt beat yourself up over that temporary setback; nothing you could do about it. You gotta focus on dealing with the meds first and worry about weight loss later.
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Thanks everyone. I donāt feel like people in my thread judge me, all I have gotten is a lot of support and encouragement here. I just tend to hole up and limit contact with the outside world when I am feeling really bad or off balance.
121.4
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If coming off the med makes you feel better this bump will be no big deal in the long run.
How do you know what your maintenance cals are? Well, Iām not really interested in how, so much as do people know if itās accurate or not? Just me, but my thinking is that itās better to just be a little under than go too far under and feel so deprived that one is more likely to go overboard occasionally.
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Tdee calculator. 1800 is less than maintenance but I think still doable for me, which is why I chose it. Really the best way is to just see if youāre losing weight or maintaining at a certain calorie level and adjust from there.
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200 extra calories really makes a difference. Iām going to buy some chicken and sardines today to boost my protein a bit.
120.7 kg
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Iām starting to feel more normal, well normal for me! 
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Woooo!!!
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Made an effort to get over 100g in protein. Chicken breast ftw. I hope Fabian is appreciating my sticking to correct protocol with my grams abbreviations!
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Thatās gotta be the quickest like I have ever received. Fabian ftw!
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I just had a look back through my diary and I was 113.9 in November and this morning I weighed in at 122.1 which is 8.2 kg increase in 2 months! Totally ridiculous. All because I canāt be bothered logging all the time and have emotional eating issues. Because of my emotional eating I should definitely log every day because then I can at least attempt damage control rather than sticking my head in the sand and singing āLa la la la la laā. Letās get back to it and actually follow through for once. Plus I got puffed walking my dog, it was hot but still. Iām not going to be somebody who canāt walk reasonable distances. Thatās not me, thatās not who I am.
If anyone sees me miss logging a day please feel free to call me out on it.
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Letās get some numbers down. Would be nice to have something apart from weight to focus on and weāre all friends here. Iām not sure if I mentioned earlier that I am 5 ft 9.
c-126
w-118
h-131
Looking forward to hitting 88cm for my waist. Apparently thatās an acceptable number from a health perspective.
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Now I am reading itās 80. Oh well Iāll celebrate for both 
Iām really grateful to yoga as I feel like itās kept me somewhat supple and limber. Iām hardly a yoga guru and I like that itās not competitive. Youāre encouraged to listen to your body and just do what you can. Having said that I do feel a bit proud when I can do stuff my much slimmer friend canāt. Thank you yoga for helping me physically and mentally.
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Yoga with Adriene is the best!
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