Hi @JonnyA . I don’t know who you are really, and I apologize for that.I guess you are the mod here now. I appreciate you are just trying to do what is almost certainly a miserable job, and I’m quite happy to fuck off if the community decides that.
However I want to clarify and explain a few things both about myself and this situation, because there has been quite a bit of cowardly lying and rewriting of events, I see a lot of people even changed screen names and crap, so pardon me for possibly not understanding the last ~1 year of crap here, I couldnt be bothered to keep up with it, seemed like much more of the same.
ANYWAY I was not banned. I requested a self ban after my series of mistakes which I have publicly apologized and explained many times across different websites now. It isnt worth rehashing to me. It felt at that time I needed to go so I self banned because my mental state was not good at all, even more than I let on, and I didnt feel I could handle a community RFC vote to ban me, which I truly felt would be too volatile and hard to read and watch play out.
Then much later you guys implemented a rule that banned posters cannot post anymore or something ever again. That was after my self ban, look it up. had I known that would somehow disqualify me from ever posting here again, I’d have just let it play out with a formal ban.
This rule isnt even being consistently applied either. @anon38180840 still posts here and he was actually actually banned. Pretty sure there’s some other examples. Several self-perma’d people still post here I believe, or did at one point after their self-perma.
So like, if I’m some exception, go ahead and formalize it, because this is a little bullshit.
I feel obligated to give a life update because people here are tremendously unempathetic and forget there’s an actual human on the other side of the screen sometimes. My health is completely failing. I was very near death at several points in the last 6 months. My mental state isnt great. Things are trending a little better but the prognosis still isnt even that great honestly even with the rosiest glasses on. I found out I am a bit on the spectrum as well, so I am trying to navigate my personal relationships a bit more tactfully, and realized (due to people reaching out to me many times and maintaining friendships from here with several people) that yea, I would like to post in a few threads here. I didnt out myself because I didn’t want to cause disruption. I understand this may cause disruption, so if it is better for the community to ask me to leave, go ahead and I will. But you’re not gonna just push me out with some bullshit, and quite frankly, if I want to post here I can and I will, and it’s going to create a headache for everyone. This isn’t a threat, more of a statement that like, software or IP bans arent gonna do crap for me if I actually want to make posts here. Hell I’m pretty sure I have a site backup or three laying around somewhere, if I wanted to reverse engineer this entire fucking website I can. I dont want to though, I’m impossibly lazy, sick, frail, and tired, so maybe just fuking let me post in the golf thread and leave me be.
This has chased me around multiple sites now and I’m quite irritated about it, and due to my ASD and other stuff I have extreme difficulty regulating my emotions when I get riled, so I apologize.
Good day. If you move or delete this post before people can see it or nuke this account I’m just going to keep repeating it.