I supported Hillary in the primary. I showed up to vote for her when the polls opened on election day. I did this despite thinking she couldn’t lose. I didn’t believe my eyes until pitifully late on election day. I donated a significant amount of money, and bet a similar amount of money on her winning.
The cognitive dissonance that followed was some of the most extreme shit I’ve ever dealt with. It was up there with my worst break even stretch when I played poker, and the confusion I felt when my dad died and his reality distortion field came down. And then Trump kept tweeting and rubbed salt in the wound on a daily basis.
I’ve been forced to really think about what happened in the aftermath. I think a lot of you have lied to yourselves as an alternative to the admittedly gruesome process I had to go through.
Losing to DJT was quantifiably different than losing the W. W was a much better political candidate than Donald Trump and Karl Rove was pretty good at his job. That’s not trying to excuse Gore and Kerry who were both pretty weak candidates given that there are 300+ million people in this country the majority of whom are Democrats. They both got to where they were at least somewhat nepotistically and it showed. But none of that remotely compared to the HRC campaign.
I won’t pretend like I thought she was a good candidate during the campaign. I thought she was pretty trash and was actually grateful that Trump was her opponent. I thought we’d dodged a bullet by having a clown for an opponent instead of Kasich/Rubio or even Jeb!
I didn’t realize that she was the bullet and we were already badly hit. In retrospect I’m sort of glad that the first woman president didn’t get there because she married the right man. All of the liberal mythology around HRC being some kind of spectacular wonk talent was just that. In reality she’s a vapid social climber with no particular talent. Instead of feeling any shame for hurling this country into the abyss through her own incompetence she cashed a book deal (where the responsibility she takes for what happened is skin deep, it’s mostly about passing the blame to others from the reviews I read) and has the nerve to appear in public.
A lot of you object to what I said because you’d object to my saying that about anyone. I think that’s more than a little cowardly. Politics isn’t a game. Millions of people are going to die because Hillary Clinton felt she was entitled to the Presidency. She was thinking about her legacy during the campaign far more than she was thinking about making absolutely sure that she won. She knew the Russians were meddling and still didn’t take the possibility that Trump could win seriously. She knew that the email thing was being used to smear her and she let it hang around rather than doing what needed to be done to settle it and make it go away (to be clear the error was running for president while this was hanging over her… she should have figured out what it would take to settle and done that or not run at all).
Honestly I can’t think of a single thing she did that was tactically or strategically correct in the entire race. I dare any of you to name something she did right.
Since her loss I’ve seen something interesting. I’ve seen politicians who are actually good at their jobs. AOC is goddamn great at being a politician. Elizabeth Warren is goddamn great at running for president and being a politician. There are quite a few more people on our side who are more than just narcissists begging big donors for money so that they can purchase an unearned megaphone to broadcast bullshit.
I’m no longer OK with those politicians. My expectations are now extremely high. My expectations can be met, which is why they are now minimum requirements. This country has 300+M people in it. The people who represent us should be exceptional. Not just in the schools they attended because of privilege but in their actual ability. Nothing less will ever be OK for me ever again. Mostly because Hillary lost to Trump and that’s a lesson I won’t be forgetting.