you don’t need to tiptoe around my feelings, I understand the concerns raised. I have thought about them too.
The drama lately is bugging me but it is trivially easy to tune it out, by just muting entire sections of this forum, which I am likely to do if it does not stop. That is just my personal consumption of the site we’re talking about here. I would treat this role like a job, which maybe isn’t healthy, but it’s how I approach everything in my life.
Regarding what to do if the worst were to happen, we have a backup in ggoreo, and microbet willing to step in. One of the first things I am going to do, which maybe zikzak has already done, is extensively document all the steps and procedures involved in doing this, so it is repeatable even by a monkey in the future. That is what I do for my job - I enable other people to use complex technologies. Even though this seems relatively simple, even for a non-techie - it is daunting, and I would just want to make it idiot proof.
Regarding me abusing mod powers, and maybe it doesn’t reflect well on me, but I am far too lazy and apathetic to do anything malicious like that. And, honestly, I feel I am exposing myself to a little amount of risk on my end.
Like, I have a blog that I keep fairly intimate details of my life in. I write in detail about my mental health (I try to reduce the stigma whenever I can). If I were to do something, if someone in retaliation truly wanted to make my life extremely difficult it would be possible. And honestly that makes me a little uncomfortable. But, I really like this community, and I don’t want to cause harm to it or abuse its trust. If placing a large amount of trust in me is problematic, I can understand that, but I don’t know how else to communicate that I just want to help, I am interested and qualified, and think I am probably one of the best people here for this role.
I am open to any suggestions on how to make this more comfortable for people, I wouldn’t want any distrust. Because that shit sucks.