Classic-yet-bizarre anxiety dreams last night: There is some sort of work I haven’t done. I’m in a place I shouldn’t be, unable to get to where I need to be. I can’t seem to communicate with a person I’m with.
The bizarre part is because the work was homework for a class and I’m 43; the place I was stuck was somewhere in the Middle East (never been, and I live in upstate NY of the U.S.); and the person I couldn’t communicate with was a complete unknown.
As have I. I’ve also had many dreams where im driving normally but the brakes don’t work. That’s a shitty feeling.
I was paying for something (medicine? a prescription?), looked down and saw someone else’s credit card on the counter. I used it, went back to work. Someone in the newsroom was talking about losing their credit card and I was filled with guilt and dread I would be found out.
Then I was playing in a poker game, like a casual game in someone’s hotel room (not a casino). I got up to go somewhere, and when I came back the game had broke and my chips stolen. A strange narrative ensued, with a lot of little kids and a band.
Woke up to slight but persistent anxiety, a feeling I hadn’t done something and would be found out.
On an airplane, getting a drink at the bar before takeoff. The bartender (on the plane!) serves me three.
A woman fires a revolver, large caliber. The recoil jerks the weapon back over her head. Does she injure herself?
A stillborn baby, or an abortion, in a plastic bucket. We don’t know what to do with it, and leave it on the porch.
$88 to take care of an architect’s cat for the weekend. A fancy building, where a young girl with a dog lived in a lobby apartment with a grand fireplace.
My friend’s fish lives in a dirty aquarium, and I know it will die soon but am afraid to change the water. Music plays.
How young was the girl?
I’m not sure. 20s or 30s.
A new group of people. Maybe I was a student again, with other students? Younger people. Cannabis consumption. And then … I realized it was a dream. At one point I hurled myself forward, and instead of impact my consciousness simply remained.
I tried to tell them. Don’t remember how that went. Maybe it didn’t.
A dream within a dream–but not lucid dreaming, which I have also experienced.
I woke up, and my girlfriend brought me coffee in bed. Then she said she was pretty sure she didn’t want to be with me long-term.
Feeling pretty gutted.
As I left, her daughter was singing in the other room. Good chance I wont see her again, and didn’t get to say goodbye.
Oof. Feel for you man.
Thanks.
Honestly, I feel horrible. Really believed this might be … something…
ElSapo Goat
thx for sharing. wow. It’s artistic
